Yesterday was pretty much uneventful except for me locking myself out of my apartment, it is a good thing the pet has keys. Last nights trek took me to 34th street and back. So it was roughly 6 miles. I have to say that this years Macy's windows freak me out a bit. I dunno why.

Did I mention that good coffee is a form of happiness in some way. The same for tea. My favorite tea though I can't seem to find in America...I need to look for it. I can't find any good strawberry tea here. I don't know why. So if anyone finds it let me know...ok

So I am virtually void of energy at the moment. It is a combination of me getting essentially two hours of sleep last night despite the fact that I did try to go to sleep early. I just simply could not fall asleep. So instead I played with my graphite and my old conte crayons, and trust me there is a certain satisfaction with sketching with graphite after not having sketched in awhile. Then I played with my watercolors and now Esther has my insomniac rendition of the gerber daisies that are sitting on the kitchen table. So I guess it was a little bit productive.

Anyways tonight after a long day of work, I went to the gym and did an hour of upper body trainer with my trainer so owwwww....

So at this point I have been through every single Howie Day song in multiple on my ipod thinking that it would put me to sleep...but no, hasn't worked yet. I wish I had something to draw because I would do that now....

Maybe I slept too much this weekend and used up all my sleeping hours because I can not sleep at all right now and as a result you get to be subjected to all my rambling thoughts....

My first thought which I am posting here just to get a reaction is that I live with a latent pyromaniac. Hehehe maybe I should call you sparky....

My second thought this early morning is that I need to find a way to stop avoiding confrontation with certain people. I do this because I think it would just be easier when things slide but then they get to some point where they have the potential to blow up in front of me. It really sucks. The truth is I hate hurting peoples feeling and want to make people feel better but in the process of making other people feel better and listening to their problems and such I get sucked in and feel worse myself. I have no idea how this happens but then I don't know what to do with all these annoying yucky feelings I get and sometimes they overflow and I get grouchy at people in general which totally defeats the purpose of me trying to make other people feel better in the first place. The person who was able to follow that flow of Elishelvish logic should probably get a prize because I am not sure I can read that through myself.

My third and not so pressing issue is that the new u218 cd has come out and I see absolutely no point in getting it, except maybe the video version because I already have all the songs except for ONE. The thing is if you want to download it from itunes or something they made that one song ALBUM ONLY so you can not get it on it's own which means people have to get the album or wait for it to come out as a single. I have a feeling that they wont let you get it as a single....annoying music people.

I ask again like I have asked many times... what about me makes people assume that I am, was, or ever wish to be Lubavitch??? I have great respect for those who are, but I never thought I particularly was... I am once again confused.

I hope that everyone had a nice thanksgiving, I did. The party was fun, had thanksgiving dinner with my family, had a James Bond date with my Dad, and slept and slept and slept. I really needed to catch up on the sleep. Now that I did today I ran some errands and then walked from our apartment to say hi to my Dad on 39th and 3rd and then walked back uptown to 88th and Riverside. :) My muscles might hurt a bit tomorrow but hopefully not so back because I have an appointment with my trainer tomorrow night.
There is not so much else going on... relaxing and watching some sappy tv now. I love sappy tv. :)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!!

Thanks to everyone who showed up last night! It was fun! We ended up giving leftover brownies and stuff away to doormen and parade people.
I didn't end up going to the parade this year. It has been raining all day and Esther was not around to drag me out of bed to go. I did however hear the booming parade announcements of every parade act and such so I did not sleep to late.
I hope everyone has a good weekend and enjoys themselves!

Its a little sad to fold socks when no one is around because then I have no one to project them at. What is the fun of folding the socks if I can't toss them at people? Seriously!

You would think that becoming an adult exempts you from participating in Holiday programs...but no. I got to sing a little, I got to speak a little, I got to turn beet red a little. This week although there is vacation seems like it is going to be very busy. I cleaned up our apartment some tonight.

After school today I went to a pet store with a wonderful kid to buy a new pet for the classroom. What is a science room without a pet? So after we looked at ALL the animals and discussed them in detail we bought a cute little baby leopard gecko. I have to say that the experience and the kids enthusiasm just re-enforced for me why I do what I do.

It is good that I didn't have many plans today and that I rested up over the weekend because today I was running all over the place doing all that I could so I would not have so much more to do before wednesday.
I walked from my apartment to 40th and madison to the 99 cent store to buy baking pans and such. I then took the subway back to my apartment then walked to 100 and bdwy to get some other stuff. I then walked all over the uws, did laundry (had to do one load twice because a washer wasn't working properly) spent some time with a friend and now am cleaning and baking.
So far I made:
pumpkin choco chip cake
2 big brownie pans
white chip cookies

I hope people are reading the comments because that is really one of the best things about this blog. I have had an interesting weekend thus far. I went to Friday night services with a friend of mine and it was a real different experience because it was not the usual run of the mill services. If you would like me to explain, ask me, I just do not want anyone reading this to take what I say the wrong way therefore I will just leave the details out. I did alot of recharging this weekend. I took it easy tonight. I went to the gym, did some laundry, and hung out with a friend who I have not really gotten to spend real time with in a while. He has been I think everywhere but New York in the past few weeks and it was nice listening to what he had to say about the places he had been. It was a nice relaxed time. Plus I got presents :) I like my friends, they give hugs, the give presents, but most of all they give really great company to just hang out with. Those are the best kinds of people the people you can just sit around and talk with. The ones who you don't have to dress up for, don't have to go somewhere special, you can just be yourself and chill out. Which reminds me. I need a new place just to space out. I used to sit on the edge of the fountain at Lincoln Square but they closed it off to put up a big ole tree for the holiday season. BTW I must mention which I probably should not that I am a sucker for the Christmas decorations. I love seeing the windows and displays and I love the snowflake lights that they put up on Columbus. They started putting up the holiday dinosaur topiaries in front of the AMNH and I can not wait until they are lit up. It really just makes me smile. I seem to be in a good mood tonight. Going to sleep now.

Someone asked me tonight if I was spontaneous. Can I describe myself so? I would like to think so, but those who know me can sometimes predict what I will do.

I feel like this cartoon is somehow talking about me. It's from Haiku Circus.

Another tiring day at work involving some hysterical and some loony teenagers. Apparently some have a game where you draw a target on the whiteboard and toss the whiteboard markers at it recording the points. It totally destroys the markers. Smart but annoying because none of my markers now work.

Tonight I did more upper body stuff with my trainer and then since I had all this extra caffienated energy I went on a walk and ended up going to 42nd street and back. So I might hurt a little but tomorrow. We shall see. It really was a nice night for a walk. I like when there is a soft rain like that. Its nice to just keep on going listening to music and such. Very relaxing.

This weekend I really need to clean the apartment and figure out what we are getting for the party....

Someone please explain to me why I am addicted to the show Miami Ink? They are really some amazing artists.

So in the past few hours they have blocked the evite website at work citing "social networking" in the firewall message. I thought that was interesting because many other things are not blocked. Who knows...maybe they go by the amount of hits the website gets in a certain amount of time. Right now I am doing more PTCs but there have not been so many people today because I got the bulk of people on sunday. So that is why I can type away on nonsense right now.

Ok, no more rants at 3am. Ha right, we will see about that. But I am keeping up that post because that is me.
So ZAM Monster, I hope this is enough of a shout out to you.

So jumping back into this whole dating universe is not so much fun for me right now. It has been an interesting week in that regard. I feel the need to share this because I know I am not the only one who feels the same way. I have noticed that two categories of guys come my way the sweet, smart, nerdy types who are great but they are missing that spark of something that makes them unique and crazy (but in a good way) or guys who are just for lack of other words...strange as all hell. I am looking for somewhere in between. I am not finding somewhere in between. It's annoying me at the moment so please forgive me my rant. Some guys are really nice, they just don't go outside their realm. It is a hard thing to explain. I like people who realize that there is alot out there to learn from and experience and I am so used to people just staying in their own bubbles or shells because that is comfortable to them. I like people who try to experience and explore something different. I don't mean all the time. I am a perfectly happy homebody most of the time. I just like the options to be open. I like people with diverse friends because those people really appreciate other people and see others for their uniqueness and not just for whatever group or category that they fit into. I am having issues with this. I really hope that this is making sense to someone else than me! Rant over for now...thank you for listening.